This happened on NYE, I’m finally ready to talk about this.

First, some backstory about me. I am a confident, sexually actively straight male, who enjoys wearing erotic underwear. Thongs, banana hammocks, jock straps, mesh underwear – have them all. Years and years ago an ex bought them for me as a joke and I enjoyed the way I feel in them. I like feeling sexy. Fuck you if you think that isn’t a way a straight man should want to feel.

Regardless of how I feel though, I do understand this is not every ones cup of tea, so unless things have progressed and often been discussed first lol, i don’t share them. It’s my personal thing. I actually wear them often when I am confident no one will see.

So, on NYE I went out with my cousin and her friends. For reference, I am 36, she is 28. We’ve been friendly in social situations since she graduated college and we have similar careers and interests. I had no plans, she invited me to a party, sounded like fun!

She was going to crash at my place, so i’m not going to bring anyone home. I’m in the mood to feel sexy so I wear a black thong. Cock looking nice, ass looking nice, feeling wonderful. Put on my outfit over and we head out for the night.

Well, I guess the mojo worked, because I met a girl and she had some male friends with her that were getting friendly with my cousins friends, and we were all invited to an after party.

We get to a beautiful house, drinking, dancing, yada yada yada, someone suggests we go in the jacuzzi. No skinny dipping, just stripping down to underwear. Fuck.

Everyone is getting in, cousin is in. I am hesitating and getting teased and the girl that invited us back is coyly motioning for me to join her. Literally all attention is on me.

My options are: 1. appear afraid and not spontaneous – which i am not. that was killing me. 2. strip down to my thong. 3. say i don’t wear underwear and strip naked.

In the alcohol heat, I think that jumping in naked is the look. With my cousin. So i drop my pants, cock swinging and I carefully walk on the wet concrete to the jacuzzi. I look at my cousin and she is locked eye level with my approaching penis.

She blurts out some form of “oh hell no” and gets out. I laugh and everyone is kind of like “ugh, that’s your cousin bro.”. the mood is super awkward and eventually the conversation changes. a few minutes later my cousin comes out from the house asking if we can go soon.

I of course oblige. We uber back to my place in complete silence. I tried to apologize but she was not having it. She left early the next morning without saying goodbye.

I texted her about a week later and thanked her for inviting me to the party. I apologized again and she said it’s all good but I will forever be “Penis Man” to her friends. Wonderful.

And got ghosted by the girl who invited.

But hey, at least my pervy secret was protected. but at what cost. at what cost….