my hatred for americans and america is extreme and i didn’t know how to deal with it

for this reason i started watching ISIS beheading videos of americans. I also watched videos where a black person murders and shoots white americans. My favourite video is a mass shooting and beheading of an american female journalist by muslim terrorists

the sheer horror in their screams makes me happy, it gives me everything i wanted, watching americans in extreme pain and agony makes me so satisfied that i feel psychopathic. I really want to murder an american tourist but i am not stupid enough for that